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She lives with that monster during all this time
Last time, she fought so hard with him
After facing that bloody war that draining her blood sweat and tears, finally he's gone
Unfortunately, he didn't gone completely
The truth is he just go hiding, waiting for the time he must come again

Yesterday, the monster inside is awake
He come back stronger than before
He was ready to kill her slowly this time
He's gonna ate her confidence and left a big doubt and worriness
He's gonna imprint that deeply scars inside
Bigger, deeper, more hurt than last time

But the truth is, it's her fault
She let the monster awake itself
She let the monster broke her
She know she's gonna dead this time, but she didn't do any single thing

Because she did it enough for this life.
She can't hold it anymore.
And no one can stop her.
Because the heart are already welcoming that monster.

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